002 [Network: Audio]

[brotherofagod]

I know there are serious things happening but focusing on that has never been something I'm good at. That said, Thanksgiving just passed by. [Not that Jacob has a good track record for celebrating or understanding most holidays but it got him thinking.] Not sure who has thanksgiving or who celebrates it.

It's a pretty strange holiday.

[Jacob remembers it as a holiday dedicated to overeating.]

But it also reminds me that Christmas is coming up too. I don't remember doing much the last time I was here. [He thinks he gave away wooden carvings but then that might have had no relation to Christmas, Jacob's memories were still a bit fuzzy.]

Anyway, I wanted to know what sort of traditions people had.

My traditions changed a lot after my parents passed but when I was very young I remember a lot of cookies and a lot of pie. Along with a great deal of decorations that I had to help with or, I wouldn't get the aforementioned cookies and pie.

What about you guys?

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[skyward_eyes]

I suppose I do, a bit. He had only recently learned what he was to come to be one day. So in the end, I mostly knew him as him.

[People like that back home? Nope. He chuckles and shakes his head.]

My dear friend, it's simple. We had a god. We killed him. He was, well, cruel.

[brotherofagod]

Probably good that he's not around anymore.

[He thinks back to his sister but his childhood memories of here were fuzzy. It's always been like that, ever since she'd caused him to forget about her. He wonders if they had a good relationship back then. The easiest thing for him to remember is when she'd been mad at him. He hadn't been the greatest little brother.]

I don't really remember my sister before the 'god' thing. It's been weird sorting all that out. I never really knew what to think of her. [In addition to that there is the guilt that he felt for nearly killing her.]

[skyward_eyes]

[Exactly! Nida was very glad there was no god around by his time. He doubted that SeeD would be approved of. Sorceresses sure didn't like them.]

And what do you think about her now?

[brotherofagod]

[He shrugs.]

I don't want her to be hurt but we aren't super close. She tries. There is just a lot that I won't tell her because I know she'll blame herself for it. Even if it wasn't her fault. So it'll always be weird but we care about each other.

And that's all that really matters.

[skyward_eyes]

Sometimes, when you love someone, you see yourself in their pain. And you try and hold yourself apart from it, but you wonder if there were things you could do to make it better, or to have kept it from happening. At least, I think that’s what it’s like.

[brotherofagod]

Yeah. It's like that and I don't want her to worry about that sort of thing.

It's in the past.

[He's still dealing with some trauma but he doesn't blame his sister and he doesn't want her to blame herself. She's already had a hell of a time.]

[skyward_eyes]

[Nida knew that the past didn’t always stay in the past. But he didn’t think that needed pointed out right now.]

You know, life isn’t an easy thing, especially when someone’s got the burden of fate on them like that. Like it sounds like she did. I think she probably did some of what you’ve implied to keep you safe. And worrying about you is sorta what comes with that.

[brotherofagod]

Yeah. I know. I mean, I don't know everything but I can see how hard she tries. She kinda sucks at hiding it but if I can smile and ease that worry. I'd rather do that.

Though I suppose there might be a time to talk about it. Maybe when things become easier. [He really doesn't know if there is ever a right time to talk to people about depressing things.]

[skyward_eyes]

[At least he can see it. And that is nice.]

Maybe when things get easier. But I just hope you can be happy here.

[brotherofagod]

I will.

[He signs.]

If I can keep my head out of my ass, but you'll help with that right?

[skyward_eyes]

I'll try. Not that I'm very good at it most days.

[brotherofagod]

We'll keep each other in check.

Anyway, I should get going. I'll see you at our next sparring match.

[skyward_eyes]

Indeed. I'll see you then. Be sure to be ready.

[brotherofagod]

Always.

[With his final goodbye he politely hangs up.]