004 ~ Back from the Dead [OPEN TO ALL]

[brotherofagod]

Who; Jacob 'Jake' Miller & YOU!
What; Coming back from the dead...
Where; A few places, see below.
When; November 8th thru 22nd
Warnings; Death & talk of trauma & more; will post cw's in thread headers.



MEMORIES OF DEATH: GRAY BUILDING & OPEN SQUARE

[The return is jaring. Not because it is sudden, but because death had always been the end of his depressing story. He knows that one day he would die and no one would be able to save him and that is what had happened. He had been faced with a monster and there hadn't been anyone there to save him… but here he is breathing and somewhat alive. His resurrection comes with a cost but Jacob doesn't mind. He feels disconnected from the world, as if he isn't really a part of it.

He can't feel the world around him anymore.

He isn't hollow, he feels something but he can't feel the cotton against his chest or the discomfort when he cut himself. All he felt was the knot of worry and uncertainty tightening in his chest.

Sleep was nearly impossible but he doesn't feel confident enough to wander far from the safety of his apartment. Not yet. It doesn't matter if the bear is gone. He remembers it coming for him, like it knows exactly where he is and is coming for him.

Jacob swallows a shaky breath and begins to circle around the apartment's courtyard. His earbuds are in his ears, classical music ringing through his head but it doesn't calm him down or erase the memories he's trying so hard to forget.

AN ESCAPE: HARBOR

[The cold winds make his eyes water but it doesn't sting like it ought too. This is a strange place to come back to but he finds comfort in the familiar scent and roll of the waves. Maine is a windy state and for a brief instance, he feels like a young boy again, standing before the great wide world but he's still too far away; too disconnected.

Jacob pulls off his shirt and kicks off his boots before walking to the water's edge.

It's so cold. He knows it's cold but he doesn't feel it. The soles of his feet tingle beneath the weight of his frame but it's just his imagination. He knows it's supposed to be cold and his brain is trying to make up for the lack of senses. His body is trying to warn him, to keep him safe but Jacob doesn't listen to the soft signs. Instead, he wonders if Caelan feels cold or if he's somehow immune to it. What he wouldn't give to be special like that; to have a connection to the world that's more than whatever this life is.

Jacob inhales a deep breath and then jumps, submerging himself into the water. His skin prickles but there is no pain. He can't feel anything. The water curls around him and if he hadn't seen it or known what he'd done, he'd feel like he's swimming through thick air. It's only as he's pulling himself from the water that he realizes how stupic that had been. He can't feel but his fingers and lips are blue from the cold.

Just because he can't feel it, doesn't mean it isn't there.

BACK TO NORMAL: GARRY's CARPENTRY

[Just south of the Market District is an open air carpentry shop where Jacob has been working for the last month. It's been two days since he has awoken from his gruesome death but he was back to work, with a set of earbuds in his ears and a small cord trailing down his back to his butt pocket. The music drowns his thoughts as well as the bustle of the market street beyond the shop.

Garry, the shop's owner, was looking over the books and greeting those who walked by with a friendly grin. He was an older man with a gray head and a well built form. Since Jacob has proven his worth as a carpenter, he has been delegating more work to the young man and has been picking up more orders than the month before.

Jacob is wearing a pair of blue jeans and his usual work boots. His shirt has been discarded despite the fall chill, revealing a simple silver cross that rests against his clavicle.

He doesn't stop working. As the day turns to night, Jacob can be found at the shop. Even after the moon begins its accent into the night sky, when Garry is gone and the shop is closed. Jacob stops focusing on orders and can be found sitting on a stool with a small piece of wood and a simple carving knife. He doesn't want to sleep and makes no attempts to head home until he's too exhausted to think.

[ooc: Quote is from Metallica.]

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[brotherofagod]

He looked shocked. It was an expression and reaction that Jacob had seen once before... when he'd first been reunited with his sister. The memories stung but he wanted to help Yuki recover. Something was wrong and Jacob got the feeling that it was his fault.

"Are you okay?" Jacob guided Yuki down to a seat and grabbed the glass of water that he regularly refilled while working. "Here. If you don't mind sharing. It's water."

[areasontohope]

Was he okay? No, not by a long shot. Seeing someone back from the dead and now breathing in front of him, on top of his hand being held, was just a whole bunch of not even close.

"I..I'm fine." Yuki replied shaking his head. He felt more and more like an idiot the more this went on. But he really didn't want to go and so his eyes just followed the man as he refilled the water and slid it over to him. That distracted the silver haired man for about a moment and he kept telling himself to just stand up and leave already.

"I'm sorry, I don't mean to be so rude and take up more of your time. I'm sure you're busy so I should just let you get back to work." Finally he stood up without tripping and nodded. "Thank you for the tree, it's beautiful."

[brotherofagod]

Jacob didn't understand. He knew that seeing him would be a shock if Yuki had known that he had died but he wasn't expecting this kind of reaction. Something tugged gently in his chest and his worry mingled with the soft echoes of something else, something that he didn't entirely understand. It was uncomfortable in a way and familiar but foreign at the same time.

He pushed it away, focusing on Yuki. His own feelings and confusion didn't matter right now. He'd attempt to unravel that later. So he focused on Yuki, pressing the water into his palm and waiting for him to drink.

"Don't go-" Jacob cut himself off and tried again. "That is... you aren't interrupting. I work too much anyway. I could use the break. So it isn't a bother. I just want to make sure you're okay but if you want to go." He'd never force Yuki to stay but he was worried and he couldn't hide that worried expression from his face.

[areasontohope]

The water pressed into his hand as he stood was quite a shock. It somehow brought him back to the present and he stood there and listened to Jacob talk.

Yuki wasn't okay but he shouldn't burden a man who'd passed away with his own feelings. So he started to slowly sit down, unsure as to what to talk about. He felt inadequate and was still convinced the man across from him now was being too kind.

The silver head shook. "You know, you keep asking if I'm okay. But the real question should be if you are okay." He couldn't bring himself to drink any of the water yet though he knew it would be rude to refuse the hospitality. And he wasn't trying to do that at all.

[brotherofagod]

Jacob's expression fell though he tried his best to hide it. "I can't say I've had an easy time but I'll live. I always bounce back." His smile grew more genuine but a little self deprecating too. "I'm used to some pretty weird stuff. I can't say that this is the weirdest thing I've encounter."

He rubbed the back of his head with his free hand, feeling awkward for admitting as much.

"You just looked so pale when you saw me. I feel bad... I should have told you when I came back and explained what had happened. I didn't-" He paused and then continued. "I didn't think anyone was really worried about me."

[areasontohope]

That made Yuki wonder if people in Jacob's world came back from the dead often because even transforming into a rat couldn't top coming back like that. But it was still pretty strange to transform regardless.

The smile was nice but it seemed like a shield, and he knew that game all too well so he said nothing but tried a small smile back.

His grey eyes then narrowed and the head shook. "You don't owe me anything, so it's okay that you didn't think that anyone would worry." Really Yuki was trying to play all of this down so that Jacob didn't worry. He could always go home and cry again if he felt the need to. And he just might. "You just..walked around with me that day, same as anyone else could do."

That hurt him to say it, but again this was to get the other to focus on himself, not him.

[brotherofagod]

Jacob felt hurt too but he didn't show it. It was stupid to feel hurt but he had thought that he and Yuki were at least friends but maybe he'd been wrong about that. Maybe he hadn't made that clear. It was no wonder, he hadn't had a lot of friends before, so Jacob really didn't know how to act around friends.

He'd think more about it tonight when he was alone and unable to sleep.

"It was a fun day." Jacob countered with an awkward smile. "But I'm fine and I won't let something like that happen again. So you don't have to worry." Not that he thinks that Yuki will worry but he really isn't sure what else to say in moments like these.

[areasontohope]

Yuki tried to smile for Jacob's sake. "It was fun." He really had appreciated the other taking time out of his busy schedule to walk around and talk with him. It was too bad he hadn't had much money with him at the time to go try and find a place to have lunch..if they even did that here.

But just as he was going to suggest maybe going to the tavern sometime to eat, Jacob changed the topic.

The silver haired man's smiling expression faltered and he took his gaze away from the other's face and looked down, speaking very softly. "I..I really hope not."

[brotherofagod]

Maybe that had been the wrong subject change. Jacob inwardly cringed, cursing himself for making Yuki's expression fall. He was apparently really bad at comforting someone.... not that he'd ever tried to comfort anyone before. Not like this.

"Yeah. So no need to worry. And we can walk around the city again. There is a lot I still haven't seen." That was a half-truth but Jacob wanted to make Yuki feel better.

It felt incredibly important.

[areasontohope]

Grey eyes lifted after Yuki swiped at them. He didn't want to cry in front of Jacob because that would be stupid and childish. And it might make the other worry which was what he was trying hard not to do.

So he took a moment and tried to make sure his voice would come out steady. "We can always grab something to eat at the tavern if we get hungry." He had a good idea where to get more of it so he wasn't worried about spending the bit he had.

Besides, if something happened to Jacob again there would be regret that he'd been too self centered and only thought of himself.

[brotherofagod]

"Yeah. Sure." Jacob scratched at his elbow, feeling like this conversation was taking a turn for the better. At least it felt like it was. Maybe he was kidding himself...

"Sounds like a game plan. Just let me know when and I'll request off work." He didn't mind taking the time to ease Yuki's worries though he really didn't understand what exactly was going on in this conversation. Why was Yuki so worried about him?

This was like a weird episode of the Twilight Zone or maybe Jacob was just thinking too much.

[areasontohope]

"I can schedule around you if needed. I don't want to be rude and take you away from work." He knew that work was important and didn't wish to be seen as someone who didn't think it was important. So he would just accommodate Jacob and he wouldn't have to worry.

Or at least in his mind it worked out fine that way.

Nervously he took a small sip of water, just for something to do because he wasn't sure what to do.

[brotherofagod]

Jacob shook his head. "Nah. Just let me know. Garry is pretty easy about my hours." Likely because Jake had been putting in too many hours lately. The old man would probably be glad to get him out of the shop for a day.

"I am in your hands." He grinned, hoping to help Yuki relax.

[areasontohope]

Suddenly he felt really nervous and shy, and not quite understanding the why of it. But he nodded. "Well, I mean we can go after you get off of work here if you're not busy."

But Yuki always presumed people were just busy because there was a lot to do in this place. And work was just like being back home, people had jobs and responsibilities, same as here. So he didn't want to be rude and take the man away from it, nor would he even think to attempt it.

[brotherofagod]

He shook his head but before he could say anything, Garry came out from a small office attached to the shop. "Take him! The runt needs to stop working so hard. Buy him a beer and get him to relax." The older man was shorter than Jacob though he towered when he walked through the shop. He was a jolly older man but he was opinionated and set in his ways.

Jacob rolled his eyes but was smiling. "Looks like it's decided."

End?

[areasontohope]

Yuki smiled a little nervously as Garry came out and made his pronouncement but then he looked back at Jacob. "Well if you're hungry we can go to the tavern." This was a good thing because even if he said he could cook, Yuki really couldn't.

But now luckily he'd been given an excuse to get them out of here and that's what he would do.

End!

[brotherofagod]

"Let's do it." Jake wasn't much of a cook either but he was learning and not willing to test his skills on an unsuspecting, even if willing, victim. "Just... give me a call."