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Llewellyn Watts ([personal profile] gadaboutdetective) wrote in [community profile] aterat2022-05-12 05:45 pm

The detective gives that trip 0/10. Would not visit again

Who; Llewellyn and people
What; 2 Open logs and 1 closed
Where; Assorted
When; All through May
Warnings; Alcohol for a start. I will update accordingly depending on what gets discussed. Update: Brief mention of homophobia and unfair laws of the era in Ignis' thread, discussion of a murder case in thread with Ivy.

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Finding his way home. - Closed to Rhy

It was late in the evening and footsteps were echoing through the sewers of of the city. Steps unsteady and a little staggered as the man exited the tunnels with a distracted look on his face.

He doesn’t really look particularly different how how he did a week ago when he disappeared. His gaze lightly unfocused as he walked almost on autopilot, his mind a whirl. Less a flock of starlings as he was prone to describing it and more of a tornado, and his emotions running rampant.

There was so much in his head now, too much. It was scrambling to sort what seemed like two very different lives. Almost two years away from home, between the Sphere and this world… And nearly that long suddenly stuffed in his head from his own world, much of it far less pleasant in some ways than the two years he’d come to know away from it.

Leaning against a lamppost, Llewellyn took a deep breath and then another as his eyes finally focused on the world around him. He was back, back in the world he’d come to think of as his home… And after having been back in his world? It had only cemented that feeling, regardless of how powerless and ill prepared he felt when it came to some of the things that happened here… It was better than the gnawing pain and repeated cycle of loss that he felt trapped in.

He wasn’t sure if he wanted to cry in frustration or relief as he stared at the quiet evening around him. Frustration for what he’d gone back to with no memories of this place, or in pure relief for being here again. Regardless, a few stray tears escaped anyway, though he’d deny it if asked.

… He’d deny a few things if asked, honestly.

“I need a drink…” He muttered, wishing to quiet his over-loud, racing thoughts just a little. It had practically been a part of his schedule over the last few months… Drink to quiet the thoughts, drink to numb the feelings that you wish you didn’t have, drink to forget how once again you were alone.

Then, absently, a particular thought rattled into place. Here he wasn’t alone. He had someone waiting for him.

Rhy.

The name comes to the forefront of his mind, and his heart suddenly ached for a different reason. How long had he been gone for? He’d promised not to leave the man, promised to stay by his husband’s side and not leave him to feel so very alone again…

The drink is forgotten for now, and Llewellyn turns in another direction, the correct direction. He wavers on his path once in a while, if only because worry had begun worming its way into his head. Worries of what to say to his husband, worries about what the man would think if he heard some of the last two years. Fear of disappointment, or judgement, or...

Llewellyn squinted at the door before him, the stained glass rose window glowing lightly with light from within. He had made it back without realizing it, so caught up in his own head again.

At first, he almost does the absurd thing, and knocks. Instead, having a small sensible thought break through the confusion, he pulls out his key and lets himself in.

It's an odd feeling as he wandered into the entry hall. Relief sinking in, the wonder of 'this is my home, it's safe here' catches a hold of him lightly. It's not the slightly lonely boarding house room, dim and empty aside from a few personal belongings, wine, and case notes. It's warm, bright, inviting, vibrantly full of life.

There's just one thing left... He wants- needs to see Rhy. Despite the vague anxiety of what on earth he might say, and the fear of how long he might have been gone lingering... He needs to see him. "Rhy?" He spoke as he began moving from one room to another in hopes of searching.

His voice doesn't sound as strong or confident as he'd like, he notes. He needs to fix that when does see his husband.

But it's a start.


Business as usual. - Gullwings or Aerith's shop ~ OTA if anyone wants to try to catch his attention when he's hiding in his work

If there was anything that would never change about Llewellyn, it was his proclivity for choosing avoidance of issues in favor of work. Why dwell and talk about the things in your head when you could be focusing on being productive and useful.

There were plenty of things that needed his attention, after all. There was work to be done at the Gullwings offices. He was a week behind on the smaller cases he'd taken on around the city, and hey- wouldn't it be nice if he tidied his desk a little? Adjust the tornado so it looked a little more...

Well, not better, but as though it had moved around a bit? Maybe a little more centralized on his desk instead of overflowing onto other people's spaces?

Plus, he noted with some confusion, he needed to tidy up the many odd little flowers that had been left on his desk. Llewellyn certainly didn't remember putting them there, and their presence puzzled him some...

Yes, anyone who walked in on seeing him organizing was probably going to wonder if they were hallucinating.


Then there was the flower shop. The detective knew he had time to make up for there, having left Aerith to take care of things by herself so rudely.

They were into the time of year where flowers were blooming and just waiting to be gathered to arrange in vases or baskets. So it wouldn't hurt to give the plants a little extra attention, would it? Especially since she'd allowed him to leave some of his starters to transfer at a later date.

Really, between arrangements waiting to be put together and flowers needing care, there was plenty for him to help with to make up for his absence!

Whether it was the office or the garden shop, there was nothing wrong with putting in a little more time here and there! And it gave him time to catch up with and check on people, which was still a priority at the end of the day.


I'll have that drink now. - The Tavern ~ OTA But warning for excessive drinking

Llewellyn was... adjusting.

Yeah, let's go with that. It sounded better than anything he could come up with. He really just needed time, he was sure. Time to finish sorting all the new thoughts and experiences into their little boxes on a shelf in his mind. Once that was done, he would lose the vague amounts of distraction and the questions of if he was listening or if something was off would stop.

He could do without those, really. He was fine. One hundred percent okay. Just adjusting. Just processing almost two years' worth of information.

Just trying to shake off the paranoia and anxiety that's still lingering from being in my own world. He let out a long breath while he waited for the tavern-keeper to bring him another drink.

Since it was just him and his thoughts? He could admit to himself that... There were some things that were less than fine.

He was tired of looking over his shoulder every time he was with Rhy, worried about some unknown seeing them and bringing danger down on their heads for just walking.

Tired of wondering when he was going to mess things up here, too. Both his personal life and professional life had... developed quite a track record. An annoying voice in the back of his mind kept musing that it might only be a matter of time before the rug got pulled out from under him.

And he was damn tired of the vague, lowered faith in the people around him. Expecting someone to spout some idiocy or opinion that would hurt someone who didn't deserve to be hurt, or even some slight against him when he didn't agree with them.

What happened to the progress he'd made? What happened to the glass being half full instead of half empty?

Another glass of something amber in colour was set in front of him, and idly he mused, 'There's a full glass.' As he pulled it towards him, hoping it might quiet his mind some while he passed some time before going home.
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[personal profile] neurotoxicity 2022-06-04 07:03 am (UTC)(link)
"Can't really think of any other way I'd handle it if I was in your spot." She wasn't entirely sure if it was the best way to handle it, but what other way was there? At the same time she wasn't entirely sure if you could even classify this as 'handling it'. At least his further explanation made her certain that he understood that. The problem was she wasn't entirely sure if she had any right to tell someone that their way of 'handling' things was or wasn't right. It wasn't like she had the best ways to handle shit. "Is doing this causing you any problems?"

She ran a finger along her own drink and then took a small sip as she listened to him. A part of her kept circling back to the thought that she was just shit at this. Comforting people wasn't exactly her forte and she was probably worse at giving advice. "I get the concern," it was one she had herself. "But what good is being afraid of something just because it could happen here?" Oh, there was irony in her saying that to him. Though it occured to her way too late to prevent herself from saying anything. Now all she could do was hope he didn't bring it up and kept focusing on the more important topic.

"That's the point I got with my work," she said with a shrug. Well, sort of. It hasn't been that she'd ben convinced that she couldn't actually change things working as a Runner, but more that she knew she couldn't. Not only had she known she couldn't change things, but she'd also realized she'd never change herself if she stayed. "Have you ever considered purely private work? It's what I went into." though, she really had no idea how possible that was in his world. She also had certain advantages (money) that he definitely didn't.

"Then I'm glad you're back here."
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[personal profile] neurotoxicity 2022-06-10 01:15 pm (UTC)(link)
They were both extremely well adjusted people, definitely. "Then is it really a problem?" Was that the best way to think about it? Nope, definitely not. Was it the way she handled things herself? Pretty much. She always knew her ways of dealing weren't healthy and she felt the shame of if after but never really tried to change. It'd be pretty hypocritical of her to try to tell him it was bad of him to do. And she was clearly being hypocritical enough with her following question.

She looked down in slight embarrassment at his reaction and sighed. "Seemed like something you'd say." Was that an attempt at saving face? Just a bit. He'd clearly realized how hypocritical it was for her to say and it was really hitting her how bad she was at offering comfort like this to anyone. How was someone as fucked up as she as able to help anyone? She couldn't. "Yeah, I know. But, haven't you said before you have to make the best of the time you have here?" Or something along those lines. At least she was pretty sure he had when he'd been encouraging her to try something with Harry.

"Mm, I'm sorry. Not a very....thoughtful suggestion." Not everyone was as lucky as she was or as Rachel had been to find her. "I'm sorry that you lost that from the Sphere." That hardly sounded helpful. "Needing time to adjust seems understandable given everything."
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[personal profile] neurotoxicity 2022-06-16 08:00 am (UTC)(link)
"We've come to an agreement," she smiled and took a sip of her own drink only to be disappointed that it was the last sip left. It was shit logic and she knew it, but it was what it was. Sometimes people needed shitty things to help them cope.

"I know I'm not wrong," That's why she said it. She liked being right, so she tried to make it happen more often than not. "If you think you give terrible advice, then I guess I should start ignoring the majority of it." Had she ever really listened in the first place? Sort of. She at least let herself try a bit more than she might have otherwise, especially when it came to Harry. So, if he was just going to admit he sucked at giving advice, then she clearly shouldn't be taking any of it. Maybe it was a slightly underhanded direction to go in.

"You'd never told him that before?" something about that surprised her given how much he talked about being open and talking to people. "How did it go telling him that?" She imagined it probably went well, they were married and she doubted Rhy would want to leave him either. Then again she actually knew nothing about Rhy, so maybe he had something he missed in his own world. Come to think of it, maybe she should have tried to get to know Rhy more. She really wasn't terrific with socializing.

"I should have known about the situations being different. Rachel reminds me of it sometimes," she said with a sigh. Sometimes she got so wrapped up on the negatives of her privilege's that she forgot she actually was still privilege's in some ways. "I hope time helps."
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[personal profile] neurotoxicity 2022-06-20 06:38 am (UTC)(link)
"You're impossible," she said without even trying to hide the frustration. She should have figured that in his current state he'd manage to turn it around on her. Maybe she really was just terrible at finding a way to comfort someone. "Your advice hasn't been the problem, it's my execution." The same frustration practically dripped from her statement, but that had more to do with her having to admit that she was bad at something. Under usual circumstances she'd avoid mentioning that she was at fault in any way at all, but she was determined to try help even at the cost of her own ego. "Your advice would probably work out if I actually followed it." Instead of only going half way and then twisting it all up. She could follow instructions perfectly for everything except personal matters.

"Can you say that last part again?" she gave him a brief smug smile in regards to him saying he should have listened to her sooner. "I'm glad you got some closure there." She could definitely understand how it'd be a relief to find out they shared the same desires in that respect. Even if she briefly wondered if that meant that Rhy didn't get along with his family or if they just loved each other that much. A part of her was jealous if it was the love one.

"I hope you're able to find a way." She didn't want to say she thought that'd be impossible, but she thought it'd be pretty impossible. There was no way to know, after all it wasn't like they actually even fully understood how they were brought here or sent back. It seemed random, but maybe it wasn't. At least they knew about the portal, maybe if they ever figured more about that thing they could learn to control it. That seemed farfetched but in a place like this? Ivy supposed you never really did know.

"You don't have to thank me, I suck at this." She could admit that. It just felt so shitty to see him like this. She was supposed to be the depressed vampire stereotype, not him. "You're intruding on my territory." Was this her attempt at a joke about his brooding? Yup. Was she very good at it? Probably not. Kist was really one of the only people she actually teased like this and it definitely came off a tiny bit stiff.
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[personal profile] neurotoxicity 2022-06-23 07:17 am (UTC)(link)
"That wouldn't be surprising," she couldn't help but at least chuckle. Not that the smile could last too long. She let out a sigh and lowered her gaze in his direction. Now he was just trying to make his advice sound bad. "I'm saying I ignored part of your advice and that I might have left out information here and there." Important information that probably would have changed exactly how he gave her the advice he had. "I'm not good at listening to other people." Rachel would probably attest to that. Ivy tended to be very single minded and often unwilling to compromise.

"You'll be the only person to do that," she gave him a slightly bitter smile. That wasn't exactly true, it was more that Rachel never listened to her and she never listened to Rachel. It ended up being a ridiculous cycle between the two of them. "That's all you can do." A part of her wanted to be more positive for him, but it seemed even worse to try to pretend it'd be an easy thing. "At least we don't really know anything about this place." Which meant that theoretically anything was possible.

"Better than advice in your world doesn't seem as comforting as you think." Considering what he'd told her about his world. "Vampires can't share. It's integral to our aura."
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[personal profile] neurotoxicity 2022-07-01 08:40 am (UTC)(link)
"If you can agree that it's both of us, I'll settle." At least this was some degree of progress. She could take it to mean that he acknowledged that his advice was good, it was just that they both may not actually follow the words he said. It seemed as though that was as far as she was going to get here. "I'm sure you can understand it," she said with a smirk. Maybe she should have acknowledged his statement about hoping things get better, but she didn't. The conversation wasn't about her after all.

"Maybe. I have a friend who would say that." Rachel would definitely be on the side of pushing people to do the impossible because you never really knew. Ivy of course with her more cynical nature (and own personal history with what her future was destined to hold) didn't subscribe to that. But....she could act like she did for a friend if it offered him some comfort. "I'm sure we'd have all thought a world like this one and the last was impossible. But here we are." So, maybe anything at all was possible. Did it click in her mind that it might mean her situation might not be so impossible? Nope. Not in the slightest.

"That's my suggestion. It looks better on me anyway. I give off the sultry mysterious lure. You just give off," she gestured up and down with an elegant flick of her wrists. "This. It definitely doesn't suit you."
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[personal profile] neurotoxicity 2022-07-02 07:24 am (UTC)(link)
"A miracle." Was that sarcasm? No, actually. Her tone was flat and implied that she actually meant it was a miracle they'd come to this agreement as they had. Somehow she actually managed to feel mildly smug about it though, as if she'd kind of won even if it was the tiniest of tiny victories. Competitive people really will take anything.

"Just never tell her that if you ever meet her." It'd go to her head to have someone tell her she was right. Not that she thought that'd ever happen. After this long away from home she almost felt like she'd never see any of them again and she wasn't entirely sure if that was a bad thing. She let out a sigh at his last comment though and rolled her eyes. "Maybe not." That was the best he was going to get from her.

Surprisingly she actually laughed at his comment, a throaty strange laugh that was accompanied by a shake of her head. "Generous of you to take it that way." It hadn't really even occured to her just how insulting it could have been, but that wasn't that surprising. "Probably the best choice. The only other one I could think of is allowing me to get you a wardrobe that fits the mood you're projecting better. How do you feel about leather?"
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[personal profile] neurotoxicity 2022-07-06 04:03 am (UTC)(link)
She followed his lead and stood up in one fluid motion without making any sound. "Suit yourself, but if you ever want to try we could go shopping together." It was entirely possible she was teasing, but he'd never be able to tell by her completely straight face and serious tone.

"You should get back to your husband, I bet he's missing you right now."