And to be fair to Ivy? She deserved a bit of satisfaction, especially with the amount of poking, prodding and questioning Llewellyn was prone to around her.
A small, wry chuckle escaped him at that. “Which says a lot, considering this world.” But… Well, she seemed to know what he meant, and that was at least something of a comfort. Explaining it in more intricate detail was a bit complicated, and he was more than a little unsure of how to do so in a way that would seem coherent… “Mm… That’s the part that I find most troubling. Is one fake? Or simply… a slight variation. I’ve dwelt on it much in the last few days, and I can’t quite come to a conclusion I find satisfying… But I can’t help but think the one in which I can be who I am openly must be slightly more valid than the one always hiding. The truest form of myself, in a sense…” He squinted, not sure if he’d exactly made sense there, hoping so… But he also had to admit, since returning? He’d felt the need to hide anyway, to keep certain things to himself.
Picking up the empty glass and looking into it absently, he found himself agreeing. “Quite dangerous, and quite foolish of me to have fallen into, I suppose… You’d think a detective would see the signs and realize it instead.” But he hadn’t, or he’d been so deep in denial he hadn’t wanted to… The things he clung to in his world seemed so strange compared the way things were here. “Mm… Truthfully, I started to think I needed a career change.”
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A small, wry chuckle escaped him at that. “Which says a lot, considering this world.” But… Well, she seemed to know what he meant, and that was at least something of a comfort. Explaining it in more intricate detail was a bit complicated, and he was more than a little unsure of how to do so in a way that would seem coherent… “Mm… That’s the part that I find most troubling. Is one fake? Or simply… a slight variation. I’ve dwelt on it much in the last few days, and I can’t quite come to a conclusion I find satisfying… But I can’t help but think the one in which I can be who I am openly must be slightly more valid than the one always hiding. The truest form of myself, in a sense…” He squinted, not sure if he’d exactly made sense there, hoping so… But he also had to admit, since returning? He’d felt the need to hide anyway, to keep certain things to himself.
Picking up the empty glass and looking into it absently, he found himself agreeing. “Quite dangerous, and quite foolish of me to have fallen into, I suppose… You’d think a detective would see the signs and realize it instead.” But he hadn’t, or he’d been so deep in denial he hadn’t wanted to… The things he clung to in his world seemed so strange compared the way things were here. “Mm… Truthfully, I started to think I needed a career change.”